Somedays

Today has been a stressful day. My hubby has deployed to Afghanistan> he has been in the military for 20 years now. Eighteen active and 2 years reserves. He is stationed at Fort Stewart. I have two kids by a previous marriage and they live with their father/grandparents in Lousiana. So I decided I would move back to Texas with a friend to be a little closer to my kids. Well I am thinking this might have been a bit of a mistake. Why I did not move back to Louisiana or Arkansas you say, where most of my family is. Well no one really has room for me and my four dogs and two cats and yes they all are in door animals and very spoiled. And my friend accepts me and my pets the way we are. She is like a sister to me and I love her and her family and we are all like family. The only thing is, they are in deep dept. I came here thinking I could save a ton of money and not have to go back to school and chill a little bit. Yeah righ. I am so stressed. I have go back to school. I am buying 90 percent of the groceries. The kids are out of control. I just don't know what to do. I am just praying this finacial aid comes through. What can I do???I am just venting. This is just me. I love her to death and told her how I felt but I just sit here and feel like I am sinking into a hell hole some days. I pray and keep praying. I do not want to do anything. I just want to cry and scream on the inside. I do not want to sink into a depression and I keep fighting but I feel it coming on. Slowly but surely. Please LORD just give me the strength to keep fighting and to hang on a little longer.