Missing

I find myself missing from my past, present and future. Yes this does not make sense to you, but to me it does. I miss a lot of my friends and how it was from my past, my family how it was before and the present now it not what I expect it to be and I sometimes want it to be like it was. I see in the future I will expect more and get less but that is okay. Changes will not always be what we expect and sometimes it is often better for us although we may not see the good of it at that time. God has a plan for each of us. And that plan for us will be followed to the good or bad. It is up to us to choose that path. I pray some days so selfishly not thinking what the real world needs. Shame on me for that. Other days I pray so hard for others that tears fall, and they never even know I prayed for them. I pray for people that despise me. My mom always told me to pray for your enemies because they need it most. I never knew I would come across anyone in this world that would despise me. I know a few and I really do not know a whole lot that I could have said or done to change things differently. We all say or do things we shouldn't and it is up to us to own up to it and I did. For them to do what they did well, I forgave them and I continue to pray. That is all I can do and hope one day that they can find peace in their heart to forgive me. That is all I can ask for.