Lessons

Lessons in life and homework. I went to my best friends house for three weeks and it was not anything like I expected. She has two small kids now and things have changed. I did  not expect to go out and party, although I did expect to do more things with her family more so than her husbands family. I guess there was too much going on and I got sick when I was there and so did they. I also let my homework get behind because I could not concentrate because I was not used to the loud noises all day and into the late night. I know they are just kids, but I am used to kids being on somewhat of a schedule and going to bed at a decent hour like at the latest 8 for a 1 and 2 year old. I guess maybe that is just my opinion. But most parents I know put their little ones to bed by then at that age. Anyways, I just could not concentrate and I let my grades drop. My fault....period. No excuses.

I really want to go back and hang out with my best friend but I do not know how to approach her without hurting her feelings or her getting upset with me. I just want to tell her, your kids will be fine with other people if you want a babysitter and let's just go out and have a good time at the rodeo or whatever. It is okay. It does not make you a bad parent. Geez. Anyways, I feel bad for feeling the way I do, but it is how I feel. I just want my BEST FRIEND!!! I love her to death and I felt like I was seeing her fall into this trap of someone I don't know. She seems happy but still sad underneath it all. Hard to explain.